Watching recordings of yourself is always weird.
The camera doesn’t play tricks. It’s objective. IT relays back what the world sees.
Most of the time, when you see yourself, it’s through a mirror or reflection. So watching a recording of yourself might be the closest form of authentically seeing what you are like and sound like.
It’s also good to not be too critical of yourself; we naturally hate videos of ourselves. Instead, be grateful that you are able to see yourself in a more objective way.