I like to look at people’s faces

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I like to look at people’s faces.

And I know that sounds extremely creepy, but please let me explain myself before you come to an immediate conclusion.

There is this… void, that I often feel in my own life.

How many times are we going to ask ourselves this question: “What is the purpose of life?”

I think if I ask it too many times to myself, I might spiral too deep into an existential crisis. But if I fear that if I don’t ask it enough, then this void that I’ve created within myself will inevitably continue to expand.

The question of purpose is what abates this void for me…at least in some weird and unexplainable way.

And I wish I knew

I wish I knew whether or not other people feel even just a little bit of the same.

How did these people get here? And where are they going?

Why are they here… and why are they going where they are going?

I’ve looked at people ever since I was a little kid… I remember one day in my childhood as I was getting watermelon juice at the big shopping mall near where I lived, and I just sat there, wondering why I was drinking this watermelon juice and why so many people were walking past me, and what each of their lives meant in this grand scheme of things as I continued to sip my juice. That watermelon juice was also damn good.

I look at people at my own campus.

What is this purpose I am looking for?

Is everyone else also looking for the same thing?

I try to see it in other people’s eyes.

And I’ve come to realize that every person, in their own beautiful way, is just as much as a complex of a human person as I am. I can see it on their face. I can see it in the way they walk. I can see it in the way that they are human.

I looked at people in Singapore, Penang, Bangkok, Hong Kong, Taipei, Shanghai, Beijing, New York, Los Angeles, Orlando, Vancouver… and I see this same complexity in every person.

This complexity. It scares me.

It scares me to think that these swarms of people all live complex lives. It scares me to think that I am a complex human being.

Why didn’t they tell me that life would be so complicated?





It’s the only thing that is ever constant in our lives

The very fact that we move towards something

Something we wish we knew

Or maybe it’s better not to know?

Either way, we move

We move towards happiness

We move towards careers

We move towards a person we like and away from those we don’t

If you are moving, it’s good

Keep it up

My way

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How often do you find yourself trying to justify to other people why you do certain things?

The answer should be never.

You should never feel the need to explain yourself or justify why you do what you do.

After all, the only person who can live your life is yourself. And the worst thing you can do is to not do it your way.

My whole life, I saw people tell my sister that her academic prowess warranted her to be a doctor, or lawyer, or something that could take advantage of her grades. She instead decided to follow her passion to pursue art. She is now in Japan for this semester doing what she loves. She did it her way.

Recently I met an amazing person who had followed a similar path. She is following her passion for musical performance when it seemed her entire high school life pointed her in the direction of academia.

At the end of the day, the only person you should be trying to please is yourself.

As hard as it is to defy societal pressures, it’ll be much more worth it to do what you want to do.

And there is nothing more attractive than someone who is passionate about what they do.

So I’m doing it My Way. Whether it be the right way, the wrong way, different way, weird way, this way…

My Way is different from Your Way, but it’s mine.


Irrational Brain


I think the brain is so funny sometimes.

We project our feelings and emotions onto others.

Or we escalate our own situations.

The brain is powerful because it has such a wild imagination.

But that imagination can also be negative. It can lead you to escalate the bad into worse.

And what’s funny is we know that our brain does this. We know that it makes us thing these bad thoughts, and these good thoughts.

We know that we get our own hopes up, or that we bring ourselves down too often.

It’s okay to do this. It’s natural.

Just understand the cycle. If you can understand your brain’s cycle, it’ll be easier to manage.

Good Luck

Duck or Rabbit?

How Your Brain Decides Without You - Issue 19: Illusions ...

This duck-rabbit drawing was first used by American psychologist Joseph Jastrow in 1899 to emphasize that perception is not only what we see, but also something mentally active.

Is it bad to be different? Is it weird to say certain phrases, or jokes, or X Y Z?

I don’t think there is ever really a cookie-cutter model to live life. There just isn’t.

Just like some people will only see a Duck. And Some will only see a Rabbit. Some people will see both sides of a situation, while some will only see one, and maybe it’ll take years for them to notice the other side.

When you first see the picture above, it’s clearly a rabbit at first, right? It’s a rabbit!

But no. Wait. It’s a duck. Is it?

Do you see both?

Life isn’t just about what you see. It’s about how you perceive the information given to you.

Hopefully, you can spend your time with people you like and with people who see the entire picture for what it is.

It’s not a duck or a rabbit. It’s both!

What do you see?


How much of your life is spent in the “now”?

Do you ever feel like you are somewhere else?

Not physically, but mentally. Emotionally.

You might physically be in class, but mentally thinking about being on a beach, or hanging out with your friends or girlfriend, or playing basketball, or traveling.

Even though I’ve spent the past week spending my time in Orlando and at Universal Studios, a part of me is not fully present in the “now”

Maybe it’s time to spend more of my life in the “now” then in my thoughts and thinking about my phone.


Steering into the skid


Sometimes, even if you know you are spiraling down a path that you didn’t expect to go in, it’s best to ride the spiral. If you hold back, if you keep feeling regret and remorse during and, even worse, anticipating the future regret, it can ruin everything.

What if instead, you just let yourself spiral a little? Just let yourself… be human? It’s not going to be perfect. Nothing will be. But at least you’re letting yourself do it your way.

“A word of advice: Play along. The more you fight it, the worse it’s gonna get. It’s like when your car slides on ice, you steer into the skid.” — Ted Mosby