Genuine Happiness

I think I can genuinely say I am at the happiest point in my life right now

And not because I am exorbitantly happy–no, I fully expect myself to experience higher points of happiness.

I am happy because I see myself going up. Up this rollercoaster called life, and up towards something I don’t even know what it looks like but it’s something I am building towards.

Magic. Investing. Writing. Podcasting. Living

Everything I’ve done is to create something meaningful

And the shape I’ve created is blurry, but I can already see it’s beautiful.

And I hope when it’s finally finished, when my creation is done, I’ll see happiness.

Simone de Beauvoir says that genuine freedom means willing freedom for all of humanity, not just yourself.

I think genuine happiness is the same.

Until I can be genuinely and completely happy, I want to share this happiness with other people first.

So let me get back into my workshop, and let me create. Let me work. Let me build happiness and cut it up into small chunks. Let me share it with you.

Thank you for everyone who comes to watch me perform magic. Especially today.

A lot of people tell me that when I perform magic, it lights up there day. What my audience doesn’t realize is that they do the same for me.

When one person’s happiness becomes your happiness–that’s genuine happiness. That’s what de Beauvoir was talking about, and I think I finally understand a little bit about her amazing philosophy.

 

 

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Being forgetful

Isn’t being forgetful one of the worst feelings in the world?

Forgetting that word…It’s on the tip of my tongue, we say

Forgetting to do homework, that you told yourself you’d remember to do…

Forgetting that one small fact for that important test…

Forgetting how it feels to hug your dog

Forgetting a phone number

Forgetting the feeling of love from a friend, or partner that you used to feel daily

We fear forgetting things because it means that time has passed. Change is the only thing that is certain, and that certainty is beautifully frightening.

Time scares us. Time is changing. Time moves forward, while we live in the past, forgetting how much better life used to be.

But if we look forward, instead, we can realize how much more potential we can have in this life, not in forgetting things, but in remembering to take care of ourselves, remembering to love one another, remembering to be the best version you can be.

Because just as we can forget the important things in life, we can also forget the pain.

And move on. And move forward. And live.